You people are clearly all way more capable on Tumblr than I am haha
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about music. That’s what I do. I love music and I love to think about music. Lately though, I’ve been thinking about music and my lack of a back up plan or a “plan B.” A lot of people ask me why I didn’t stick with school or if I ever think about going to school/why I didn’t go.
For those of you who don’t know, I actually did go to school for an extremely brief amount of time to study English. I had a Presidential Scholarship, which was a ‘competitive academic scholarship’ that gave me the opportunity to go to school for free. I think I actually made $200 by going to school haha I have no idea how.
School was fine. It wasn’t too hard, or too demanding. I had a terrible schedule, but even that’s not why I stopped attending school. It just wasn’t really what I wanted. It seemed to me that pursuing school would push my love for music out of the way. I wanted to be a musician. Sure, being a writer would be sweet, but nothing brings me more joy than playing music. It seemed like a really big waste of time for me to go study to be able to do something that I didn’t really want to in case what I did want to do didn’t work out, especially when I could have been using that time to be actively pursuing what I really wanted to do. True, I could have gone to school for music, but that’s an entirely different conversation.
The more I think about it, the more I agree with the decision I made back then. I would have had an entirely different life and not met a lot of the wonderful people that I’ve met. But not only that, having a back-up plan, having a safety net to fall back on, makes it that much easier to give up on what I would really want to do. It makes it too easy, when times get tough, to say, “Well, whatever, I have this other thing I can do instead” and just forget about music. And I can’t justify that. That’s not the way I want to operate. When I pursue something, I want to fully pursue that one thing. Not have other things constantly in my mind that I’m also considering and be up in the air about whether I’d rather be doing those things instead.
So, I could try to be funny and say something that wouldn’t make sense to most of you (or any of you at all possibly) like “I don’t believe in Plan B,” but the really funny thing is, that’s totally true. I don’t believe in me having a “just in case” scenario as much as I don’t believe in pursuing a girl and having another girl on the side that I could settle for if things didn’t work out with the one I really wanted to be with. That’s just how I am.
-Dan :)